So today is my first official day of college. Needless to say, I am beginning to think that maybe everyone was right when they said it would be too much. Even though I am only taking online classes I feel there is so much to do. It seems maybe we have neither the money or the time for me to do this. I REALLY want to to be able to provide a better life for my husband and kids, but maybe I just don't have the energy. I cannot stop thinking about all of the things I have to do. I spent way more money than I can afford at the book store and because of Eric's income I feel we may not qualify for very much financial aid. I am definately feeling the pressure this week and it's only Monday. I was late getting my financial aid application in and really hope the college has an answer soon as the payment is due this Friday. I need to be able to work out some type of payment plan if financial aid is not going to cover much.

I am also feeling the pressur of "What if I fail?" I know that I can't think like that if I really want to succeed, but it's hard to think about it when I'm already feeling run down and it's only the first day! Sooo could use all the encouragement, support, advice, money, and time that I can get!